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Dir en grey- Kyo by silentillusion
Dir en grey- Kyo

Digital painting of my favourite vocalist Kyo of Dir en grey. Work time was something like 2-3 hours. Dir en grey, aside from being my favourite band, is very special to me because their music is one of the few things that can bring me out of my depression.

A little soul baring here.

I don't like to talk about it much because I think it makes a lot of people uncomfortable, but I feel tired of hiding behind a mask. I've lived with depression since I was very young. It could range from mild to very, very severe. In recent years I have managed it much better, but I will live with it forever.

Some Dir en grey songs are chaotic, angry, mournful, disjointed. Something most people probably would hate. But to me, that's how the world feels sometimes, and all I want to do is scream until my vocal chords disintegrate. In that chaos there's this weird beauty, and to hear someone else articulate that feeling for me is cathartic. Despite a language barrier, the emotion felt is so strong that it's the only music that can bring me to tears.

I've faced a lot of difficulty because of my illness. I've been mocked and ridiculed, misunderstood; I've had people tell me to kill myself. Sometimes it gets the better of me and makes me say hurtful things. I don't like to tell people about it, because I want to maintain an appearance of normalcy. But I think there are so many more people like me who are hiding their pain. So please, if you know someone who may be depressed, treat them with kindness and openness. Many of us are fighting with ourselves every day. Don't be afraid to ask what you might be able to do to help, and don't be upset if you can't do anything.

I'll leave you with one of my favourite new Dir en grey songs:…
Centralia PG 27 WIP Preview by silentillusion
Centralia PG 27 WIP Preview
Only a few pencils left to do and then I will be inking issue one of Centralia 2050! This is a snippet of page 27. Looking forward to being able to share this comic with everyone. Stay tuned for more progress updates~
Just got back from SacAnime. Thanks to everyone who came by my partner and I's booth! :3
Centralia 2050 Pg 25 WIP by silentillusion
Centralia 2050 Pg 25 WIP
Really excited for the progress on the first issue of Centralia 2050! I'm 3/4 of the way through with the "pencils" (digital pencils?). Here is a peek at a half page.
Kana Colour Sketch by silentillusion
Kana Colour Sketch
More Amaranth character art, this one of Kana. Wanted to flip from pristine doll-like character to a wilier one. :U Also trying to do more active poses and costume studies.
I actually found a drawing of Kana similar to this from 2007-ish, debating if I should embarrass myself with a side-by-side comparison ToT if anyone read the old Amaranth graphic novel feel free to laugh at the old character designs. They are being replaced by shinier, better drawn counterparts.
Figured I should take the Fanime journal post down since it is now July ouo Next up SacAnime in August!

Been working steadily on the latest comic project. If you like watching small Asian girls beat shit up and solve mysteries, then stay tuned! A proper information dump is TBD.

And thanks everyone for watching and supporting my art! Hope you're all doing well and hopefully enjoying REAL summer unlike the foggy wet Silent Hill environment I live in. :C


Artist | Professional | Film & Animation
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I'm a storyboard artist living in the Bay Area. In my free time I'm working on multiple graphic novel projects, and the rest of the time I'm wearing ridiculous outfits. Sometimes I do both at the same time.

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Kenjisama Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Awesome arts lady!
silentillusion Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2014  Professional Filmographer
Thank you! :3
StamayoStudio Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
You have an awesome gallery!
silentillusion Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2013  Professional Filmographer
Thank you! :]
djbridget Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2013
The commission is awesome!!!!! I love it. LOVE it!!! Thank you!!!!
SpencerBingham Featured By Owner May 28, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey, I ran into you at Fanime! Really great work! :D
silentillusion Featured By Owner May 28, 2013  Professional Filmographer
Ah, cool! Thanks a lot for checking out my stuff! :heart:
psyAlera Featured By Owner May 4, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Happy Birthday~
silentillusion Featured By Owner May 4, 2013  Professional Filmographer
Thank you! <3
simplyNAO Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch! I really appreciate it :D
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